Well, kids, I’m throwing in the towel.
Since the first week of NaNoWriMo I’ve been consistently lagging behind, and that margin has just gotten bigger and bigger throughout the month. Right now I’m about 7,000 words behind, and the upcoming week is not looking forgiving in terms of time to write. Which basically means that it looks like a normal week for me.
The other difficulty is that I went into this attempting to write without a definite outline, and at least this time it proved to be a bad strategy for me. I’ve had a hard time sticking to my original vision for the story, and since my original vision for the story calls for some very specific things to avoid it was really important for me to stick to it. I like some of the odd developments that emerged in what I’ve written so far, but I’ve also veered disturbingly close to a typical “vampires are people too!” tale, which is exactly what I was hoping not to do. I blame the fact that I was reading the Sookie Stackhouse books at the same time as all this writing.
I realized about a week and a half ago that I would be scrapping virtually everything, and once I decided that it became a whole lot harder to churn out more crap to be scrapped. Especially since I was not spending long afternoons curled up on my couch writing–I was sneaking words in during breaks at work, or staying up late when I really should have been sleeping. I suppose that’s in keeping with the month, but I’m an old lady in a twenty-three-year-old’s body and I need my sleep.
But fear not! I’m certainly keeping all the ideas I brainstormed at the beginning of the month and some of the things that I came up with while writing. I’ll go back to the drawing board and come up with a more solid plan, and this story will see the light of day someday.
The exciting part of this surrender is that I’ll be able to get back to doing some more reading. I mentioned once before that I picked up a lot of great non-fiction researchy-type books on monsters, mysticism, and philosophy while I was in Denver and Portland, so I’ll be reading and reviewing those in the upcoming weeks. Keep an eye out!